3. Isolation

Isolation: #3 in the Great Mother Kit

Purple Loosestrife, Othello, New Year 2000, Phlox, Calla Lily, Summer Solstice, Pathfinder.

Isolation addresses the feelings of utter helpless when we come face to face with demons from our past. As the illusions we have constructed are stripped away, leaving us completely bereft, the essence affirms the simple presence of our being.

Unable to move, I wait and watch. Scenes of past and future events haunt and torture me. I see everything I have not done and everything I must do. All my limitations are vividly displayed before me. I cannot bear the pain. Desperately alone, I rage at the cold stone chamber. I have nothing, and in this place nothing that I have done is valued. The cave absorbs my fierce wailing and when I am spent, the silence vibrates around me. The darkness still weighs thick and heavy, confirming my aloneness. Dazed, I reach out and stroke my toes. I lose track of which is which and whether there are even ten. A flicker of warmth stirs within me. This, my body, is one thing that is mine. The rest is illusion. Yet even as I claim this, I know it too will be taken away. I let it comfort me.

“You will take nothing from this place but your skin and bones.”